How one instant decision can change the way you think?

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By reading the title you must be wondering how one instant decision can change the way we think? Or can change your perspective on life?

Like how? 

To know how something unexpected brings a big change?

Read it further,

someone - man! I’m telling you he just wrote it to gain attention, 

My answer - yes dude! You are correct, I wrote it intentionally to hold your attention, but I did this for your benefit only! 

Still, thinking how? 

Let’s find out, 

Come on! Let’s start the journey of understanding how one situation forced me to write this article,

Just For your kind information, I performed in an open mic event at my college on the 25th of March, 2022, I fought my fear of public speaking at that time. 

So, as usual, I was chilling at home after a tiring day at college, scrolling Instagram, instantly, one notification popped up on the screen, it was a mail, I got it from the student council for an Online BSc degree in data science and programming from IIT madras, this online degree is a long story in itself, I joined the meeting using the meeting link, 

The student president announced that they will be organizing a fest for all the online students of IIT Madras, they welcomed students to take the initiative and organize events…

Here’s I got a choice, a choice to choose to leave the meeting and scroll again,

Or a choice to make a decision,

Still didn’t get what I’m trying to convey?

So, after hearing this news from the president, I got a sudden thought,

Someone in my mind or soul told me this “Ayush! Just organize an open mic event here”

Without any second, I unmuted myself and said -

“ Sir, I want to organize an open mic event, where people get the chance to share their experiences, emotions, and pains, a stage where one can pour their heart out”

I still don’t know why but I just said it -

I felt like goddess Saraswati sat on my tongue and made me say this, I listened to my heart.

"whenever you see an opportunity, just grab it".

You are still thinking na! What the hell!! This is no different, anyone can do it!!

Yes you are right my friend, but for a person like me it was as scary as hell, I know

There are a lot more people like me, 

So I moved forward and began participating in meetings, and stuff like that, I still remember I had no idea how to organize an event??

Or I don’t know too, why I didn’t care about this that time, it was like, let's just fly with time, everything will be alright! 

My next move is to make a and get to know that - “Are people interested in participating in the open mic or not? “

 I made a WhatsApp group and shared the link, 

Boom! Around 100+ people joined in just 2 days, it inspired me a lot,

So to organize an event, I need to find a team, I contacted a few people’s made a team, 

It was all going smoothly, until, the day, I had to join a general discussion meeting at 12:30 Am, yes it was midnight, how I’m supposed to join the meeting at that time of the day and that too when I was busy with my cousins’ wedding, still, I did,

For almost half of my life, I ask myself this question why? Why you are doing something?

And the best part is I don’t get the exact answer anytime, it’s just me I got the feeling that let’s try and explore, and the best part is - I don’t bother myself to overthink that what if I fail?

How can I do it? 

While working I found that managing people is the toughest, if one can have this skill, he can do almost anything, I found that my team was making excuses, for not working for the event, 

As I had all the responsibility, I even had to do all the work all alone, 

I got to know that, being a leader is why that tough?

Why people don’t have leadership skills?

And why not everyone is a leader?

I asked questions made changes, worked on myself, 

Throughout the journey of being head of an open mic event that will be held at IIT Madras, on 20th May 2022, 

After many discussions, I named my event “ Beyond The Words ”.

Like an event that has the purpose of sharing the experiences of people, their pains, and almost everything that can be put into words in the form of poetry, Shayari, storytelling, and stand-up comedy. Also, those things are beyond words.

I learned time management, people management, working under strict deadlines, and many more skills.

After working for more than 15 days for more than 3+ hours every day for the event, on the 5th of May, I found that I didn’t have any expectations till now, but with time as I worked, to see this event as a successful event it became one of my small dreams.

“There are dreams you will imagine while sleeping, there are dreams you daydream about, but there are those dreams too, which you live in the process of exploration and in the  path of finding purpose and peace”

and I’m telling you- 

“Big achievements don’t make you happy and satisfied as compared to these little but undreamed dreams you live and feel .” 

I still remember that - going to college from 9 to 5, working there intensely for a management team, then coming home at 5:30 and again starting working for auditions, like 6 - 8:30, then again without any break, work for the documentation and planning part till 2 am-midnight, eating dinner at 11:30 pm, 

You know what?  even after being too tired,

I want to work for it, 

This is the level of dedication one may need to succeed in any field. 

Everything was going alright, until that day, when a sudden change came and drastically changed the situation.

I wasn’t even ready to accept that truth.

For almost a week I was in a helpless state, I just wanted to see my event successful, for which I’ve put effort so much that I’ve not put that much hard work anywhere, in a short time.

The expectations were so high, that I felt connected to the thing I was doing.

Okay, let’s be honest, as you all know, before any materialistic achievement, there is a struggle or a tough phase by which we have to pass it, to make things work as we expect.

I may not share my bad day photos, but still, this is the picture of when I had a breakdown, 

I stopped eating on time, felt like, I couldn’t even breathe, and annoyed my friends for help and support like I craved a little bit of hope.

Here, are some weird things I did during that time.

Bunked the college lectures alone to find peace and live in solitude.

As you know, a true piece of art comes from pain, I’ve been doing writing as a hobby, to let go of my emotions.

This is what I’ve written while celebrating the “ just can’t do anything “ phase.

It has become my habit to give myself a treat whenever my heart feels heavy. You can do it too. It feels so peaceful.

I’ve never taken any mirror selfies till this date…because of the unexpected change, I wanted to do something strange, something new for me…did it.

The picture looks so cool tbh

As we know, whether good or bad days, they don’t last long.

Hereafter successfully organizing the event with my team, I got the prestigious certificate that will be in my heart forever.

Here are some most important lessons I've learned and I want to share them with you, - 

“ Life is unpredictable just start exploring things out, listen to your heart”.

“You don’t need to learn something to do it. Learn by doing, make mistakes, it is the fastest way of learning something.”.

“ Be ready for any type of change, accept it, learn from it, and move on. “

And for you my lovely reader, I want to tell you an underrated yet masterpiece song, -

It is  “ Tum Sunao “ - by Arijit Anand, search it on Spotify. 

You can connect with me on Linkedin through this link - 

https://www.linkedin.com/in/ayush-rai-6512871b7

Ps - this story is important and so close to me, so before judging, or spreading any hatred or negativity about it,  remember you are also a human!

Thank you for reading! Do comment, love to hear feedback from you.